~ Spiritual Experiences ~

This chapter is included for your own interest and reference, and serves as a record of the events that unfolded in my various spiritual experiences. Please note that I was not under any kind of drug, neither had I at any time before this in my life ever taken drugs. The spiritual events are in order of their appearance with most of them occurring over a period of about three years from the ages of 30 through 32. These experiences represent the glamorous moments of my spiritual path for which I have no further need.

At the Bar

Once I met this person at work. From the moment I met him, I knew that we would always be great friends. There was something remarkably special about him, what he represented, or both. There was an appeal - a complete and liberated essence about him. I could see this straight away, although I did not know him.

We went for a drink after work on the day that he introduced himself to me. Whilst enjoying my second beer, and feeling some effect, I was suddenly out the top of my head by about 1 cm whilst still inside my body. This was the very first time that anything spiritual had ever happened to me. I was looking through my head (from my secondary brow chakra) with near-360 degree vision. Whatever I looked at, I looked at with understanding. I was both inside and outside my body, as if my “spirit within” had simply enlarged. It didn't grow in size - it was simply bigger. Since I didn't know what this was, and didn't even know what chakras were, I termed this experience a "spirit enlargement". I was in the spirit world and here in this world at the same time, bridging the two frequency ranges.

My eyes would perceive in the usual way, but would be overlapped by what was revealed through another way (or dimension) of perceiving my surrounds. The shadows on people's faces were long and dark, pronounced and smudged. I could see into people's hearts - seeing their true essences. People were what they were – not who they were in this world or how they came across.

We went over to a table. As we sat down, I suddenly had a vision – my first one ever. Through and into his face I saw a huge chasm. It had red stalagmites around a center whose bottom I could not see. It seemed as if there was indeed no bottom, for the energy that was the vision came to me in this way. Though I did not recall this place, I knew that it was at the top of Hell and I was looking down upon Hell. I then saw the Great Beast* come forward as if it had always been there in the vision from the very start.

* This Great Beast was not the Devil, but Satan. The Devil is the embodiment of Hell – that Dark polar region of the astral (or emotional body), whilst Satan the embodiment of individual freedom, free from Hell (fear) and bondage. The Devil is everything about you that you do not desire because these are those aspects of yourself that you have not yet come to terms with. Since you refuse to, they are deemed evil, since they are undesirable. The aspects are called demons, whilst the embodiment of all these aspects is termed the Devil. (You cannot become Yourself without first embracing all things – Hell included). These demons operate only on the Astral (or emotional plane) these are not to be confused with other malicious beings, such as inter-dimensional alien beings, that also operating on other frequency ranges.

As my friend smiled so the Beast come forward. As my friend smiled so too did the Beast. The Beast was completely bright red and smiled mischievously – like a small boy planning some curious experiment. I was not afraid of the Beast, but rather attracted to it, for it represented the way back to Me. It was not evil. It was not being punished or at all tormented in Hell, but rather floated over it – free from it.

The Beast was enticing – the bringer of the way; the leader out of the darkness and madness that is this world. I was attracted to the Beast, for it represented a stepping-stone to what I was - to what I am. Without hesitation, I exclaimed, “I see Satan rising within you!” Not surprisingly, this remark was sternly repudiated. His remark pulled me slightly back to reality and so his face and the face of the Beast overlapped, and thereafter, the vision dropped from view and I saw only him.

The next two times that this person and myself went out to a bar, similar “spirit enlargements” spontaneously occurred. This then got me to think about this person and what he represented, since these enlargements happened only when I was around him. Because he was not at all spiritual, even to the point of not even regarding himself to have a soul, I concluded that he was an instrument of a very powerful force - the force behind the liberation of mind and spirit – Satan.

As I got into the whole spiritual scene, it no doubt initially concerned me as to whether I had indeed been seduced by Satan, for what my friend was, what I was becoming. And what was I becoming? I was becoming free. I was becoming me! My friend was not at all spiritual per se - he didn’t even believe he had a soul. He just lived freely. I, however, went down the glamorous path of energies, angels and then on to God and Self. There was no scriptural “God”, even from the start. There was just me, and the world about me that my consciousness brought. I thought about that evening on many an occasion. It was only much later that I discovered that Satan represents freedom of individuality – a necessary step in one’s journey back to Self and, thereafter Transcendence is the way.

My First Lesson on Energies

I wondered what all this was about and really needed to get back to the Spirit world again. I found this new dimension intriguing. My eyes had been opened and I needed to get back. I went into my house, switched off all the lights and lit a candle (because I didn’t know what else to do). Then I visualized going back to that same “space”. But for some time nothing happened.

Then suddenly, there was a presence in the room and my hair stood on end. The presence was soft and cool and came as if it were a subtle breeze. It was playful, curious, bouncy, joyous and powerful! Yes it was an angel! This was the first time that an angel came to me. It was initially about the same size as a basketball when it manifest in the top corner of the room. It whizzed about the room darting here and there and bouncing about joyously - much like a happy, curious child showing off! I welcomed this energy into my space to be with me and I with it. It was great! Still back then I didn't know that it was an angel. I never thought about it. I was only in the immediate present, automatically welcoming the moment’s pure revelations. This was anyway the nature of the space that I had to go to in order to be inviting to the angel in the first place! That space was the space of complete openness to all that is within you.

Then another, seeing the open invitation to similar spirits, came along, then another and then another, and so on. On and on they came. These angels showed me that they were freely available to do my bidding, and that I was absolutely beloved of God. If fact, now that I come to think about it, this was the turning point in God's finding me. It was here that God found me. And I knew that I was of God. I opened my spirit visualizing the angels as pockets of energy there to use as I pleased, since we were all in harmony, in one plane, with one mind.

As I opened my heart, the angels surged into the Cosmic Being that I had become, energizing me on an exponential scale. This sensation was nothing like I had ever experienced before! I was with the angels and they were with me. I still didn't recognize them as angels then because this time they just happened to present themselves as small soccer ball-sized spheres of energy, and my point of reference to angels was that they looked like humans with wings and clothed in white!

My whole body tingled and my entire aura sparkled with golden sparkles about 15cm long. My arms grew warm and I then proceeded to fill up my hands with energy through visualization. I then released this energy, again through techniques of visualization, and what would seem like golden dust come forth and sparkled and darted around in the air going randomly with no direction. All this (the entire lesson) was spontaneous and pure and they only left me when their lesson had fully rung home. I know now that angels are really the energetic response of God to a situational plea as indeed are all things.

Long Fingers

I soon found a new taste in music. I was converted from heavy metal to gothic music overnight and found gothic music to be most compatible with my Spiritual Presence. Whenever I was on the dance floor I would focus really hard in getting back to that place in the Heavens and with the Angels. My arms would glow and my aura would sparkle just the same as it had done that first night at home. After focusing energy into my hands for around forty minutes non-stop my fingers started to “grow” spiritually. Over time I got them grow really long, so that they would scrape against the walls when I turned my body. I could feel where the corners of the room were because my fingers would scrape less hard against the walls there. This I found very interesting.

Energy Fields

Once I spent about twenty minutes energizing my hand and about five minutes energizing a bottle sitting on a table. Wads of energy developed around both the bottle and my hand as a result of the focusing and pooling of energy. Then, in around five minutes, I grew a beam of elastic light energy from the wad of energy around my hand to the wad of energy around the bottle by focusing just on extending my fingertip (in the form of energy) to the surface of the bottle. The energy, being elastic in nature, seemed to give rise to a physical resistance as I physically moved my hand a tad forward. But the bottle did not move, and I wondered why.

Near Spontaneous Combustion?

One time, because of prolonged focus, my entire body got really very hot to the point that it was painfully hot, so I decided to get back to normal vibrational consciousness so that the heat and pain would dissipate. But this one time, the heat steadily increased! This went on for a while and for the first time thoughts of spontaneous combustion came to my mind. Perhaps this is how others have combusted spontaneously. After this scare though, I returned to this world safe and sound!

Onlookers

During my spiritual exercises, an overseer would sometimes come and observe the angelic activity. Increasingly more powerful angels used to come along and just stand there as onlookers - not saying a word and not doing anything - just looking - often with arms folded, expressionless and very powerful.

These angels had long frizzy white/blonde hair, were neither male nor female, but had the human form. Their apprearance was masculine, but their essence feminine. Their essences were far brighter than anything imaginable! Each and every one that I've seen has always been dressed in pure long white robes with a golden belt across the chest with a type of octagonal emblem on it. They often had no mouths, and their eyes were black slits, with no whites, and violet lightening came from out of them!

These angels were neither good nor bad - just doers - doers of whatever God commanded, executing specifically calculated missions. These angels had less of a mind than my assistants, and were very close to the throne of God. The angels around had far lower natural vibrations than those of the onlookers. These onlookers I know to be Archangels for I know in my heart when I see One. They have the essence of being direct servants of God - much like the laws of nature. They reflected the immense Glory of God, and could destroy the entire world with the slightest breath! Some of these angels were sometimes fifty stories tall and possessed the might of a million suns to say the least!

The Sad Angel

Whilst single, I once met a young woman at a gothic club. At some stage she came to my house. While we were in the kitchen, my hair suddenly stood on end and two demons were outside of the kitchen window floating above the garden about three feet off the ground. They each looked like ninja turtles for their faces were squashed and they were very dark green in color. Demons are usually light gray in color and very furry – like the fur of seals. They seemed to have their arms folded, for they were merely observing. It was at this point that their Angelic essence began to show through.

When I announced them to her, she immediately started to breathe very heavily, pace up and down, and shake her hands like someone shaking their hands free of water after washing them. She was trying to rebuke these so-called demons in the name of a religious icon. This didn’t work, so I sought out to chase them away myself. By this time now, the one seemed to look at us from all angles at once – through the kitchen window, through the back window, from above, as well as from deep below and up through the soil, all at the same time!

I told her not to worry. Suddenly I was in the Heavens and saw the true nature of the “demon”. This was no demon but rather a very sad angel that needed to be heard. So I did not rebuke it. The angel’s appearance had markedly changed as a result of witnessing something awful. The countenance of the angel was of a sadness so great, and I can see it to this day. As with all essence revelations, the face revealed itself to me right before me.

The face was black and squashed as if a tank had ridden over it on the road and flattened it into parts that were very flat and into parts that were not so flat. The face was in fire and consisted of fire. This type of fire was of the essence of shame and torment and not of purity. Bits of dark red glowing coals were underneath its black skin and shining through the places where the skin was spit open. The eyes were black slits. The face would have been terrible to gaze upon if viewed from normal human consciousness!

The angel took on this countenance after witnessing the event, for the angel voluntarily took on the essence of this terrible deed; and the angel was very sad. Upon seeing this vision, a voice suddenly began to rise from within me and wanted desperately to be heard; so I gave it voice. All this happened quite automatically, naturally and without much fuss. My voice was a bit deeper and a bit more slurred than normal, but not markedly so, since my physical body wasn’t that energized. I announced that the “demons” were only witnesses of something terrible that had happened to her when she was… “Three!” she cried out, taking the very words from my mouth. I asked her why she wouldn’t let me finish what I was saying to prove to her that all this was a true and correct revelation. She said that she already knows that I know the truth because a Guru had previously told her exactly what I had.

The Man with the Black Hat

I once went to a gothic party at someone’s house one night. Most of the people were outside and I was in the house at the time with a few people in the kitchen. I walked through to the small section of the house that separated the kitchen area from the lounge and suddenly felt a massive spirit presence in the room. It then darted through the wall and came to rest outside the house and looked back in through the window. At that time, while I watched the spirit dash out by moving my head, the host of the house was suddenly behind me and calmly yet assertively said, “You saw him. You saw the man with the Black Hat” to which I did not have to reply even a single word, because we both knew that I had – and we both perfectly understood each other – who the man was. Interesting…

My Various Crown Chakra Experiences

I focused at home around obtaining energies from Angelic Beings, though at that time I did not even know what an angel was exactly. I needed to get back out of my body. I used to focus on a candle for practice and tried to push myself as far beyond the envelope of myself as possible. I however found the candle to be a distraction. I later found out that it was far easier (for myself personally) to work with forces in a somewhat darkened room.

One night I went to this gothic club. They were playing really great music that flowed and was sustained for about an hour (without a break in genre). This would be enough for what I was about to experience. I took everything I had learnt from the angels and did the following: When I got the chills from the music and my hair stood on end, I focused within this state of suspended Presence. By this I mean that there was no distraction – I was not something; I was merely a being not subject to existence. This was an initial opening of myself to the spirit world at large. On the dance floor, I allowed all energy compatible with my own to enter me. I sustained this path to self-attainment and felt the energy build and build. I did not focus on focusing - I simply let myself go. I let it fly. I let it become - become me. I let it become what it is and always has been. Myself. This is what the blind man calls “God”.

I sustained this focus on the acquisition and sustenance of energies without a break in focus. During all this time, my aura sparkled yellow (to white) spikes of elastic light energy about 3 feet long, as opposed to about one and a half centimeters of the normal lapping, soft flame enveloping the human form.

My arms and hands grew very warm. My hands had huge cushions of sparkling yellow energy around them and could feel as if my fingers could grow very long. I sustained this state of consciousness for around twenty minutes.

Then the strangest thing happened. My ethereal back started to split open, and then it really split wide open - about a foot wide. Then what seemed at first like beetle wings started unraveling themselves from out of the inside of the top of my back. Just then the pressure of energy that had been building up inside of me for all this time suddenly exploded out the top of my head in the form of blue white elastic energy that cascaded like a fountain all around me, filling the room with a kind of energy/liquid of the same color. While this happened, my wings fully extended themselves and curved slightly forward as if to umbrella me ever so slightly. They had the appearance of a cross between bat wings, a dragonfly wings and a beetle wings. They were like bats wings in that they were rigid and curved forward. They were also long and pointed and were about 14 feet long (almost twice the length of the one's illustrated in the chapter on the Chakras). They were like beetles’ wings in that they were smooth and curved and husky - like a wheat pod. They were like dragonfly wings in that they were semi-transparent and sparkled with rainbow colors.

There were two thick main black stems that supported the wings. It was these stems that curved forward. Strands of elastic energy fibers hung from them, which also gave the appearance of bat's wings. These sparkled like the sparklers on a birthday cake (with yellow to white light). The pointed wing tips sparkled even more so with this color. The Light continued to flow out of my head. It shot up about 20 feet or so, through the ceiling and then back down through the ceiling and onto the floor. The whole place then started filling up and I soon found that we were all dancing as if in the ocean where it is shallow enough to wade, for my energy had filled the whole club about 5 feet high to the chest.

I then looked for other people but did not see them spiritually. I only saw them with my eyes - a consciousness little attained at that time. What I saw all around me was all inert matter glowing and sparkling. The color of this energy was transparent black to dark red. Everything was ablaze with buzzing spiky, sparkling energy all about them (about an inch long and 2 millimeters in diameter). The bottles on tables were ablaze with crackling, buzzing energy all around them. The tables on which the bottles were resting were also buzzing, crackling and sparkling with this spiky energy. The energy surrounding the walls seemed to be darker and less elastic.

Whilst in the Heavens, I proceeded to gain mastery over this newfound consciousness. I wanted to push the envelope of this attained consciousness even further, by being able to walk about in this world whilst remaining in this state of consciousness. I did not alter my vibrational Presence. I simply walked. I lasted for about 10 paces. That was enough. I had succeeded and I had learnt enough that night. It was only at that point that I gave in to my incarnation and slipped back into normal human consciousness.

For over a year I sought out material that would confirm this experience but found nothing. I wasn't really looking though. I did some surfing here and there. I read about the chakras, and only after I had read about them, did I click that I had indeed been using them this time. But nowhere on the Internet, did I find anything about the wings or the splitting open of the back, or of the secondary third eye. Most sites simply go through common theory of the seven primary chakras. But I had experienced something totally phenomenal.

When I told someone of my experiences, I was lent a book that covered a meditative procedure on how to substantially raise one's vibrational frequency in order to communicate with angels. The visualizations dealt with the splitting open of the back, the unraveling of the wings and the light shooting out the top of the head and connecting with the Heavens. The only difference between my wings and the wings described in the book was that the book had the wings as many individual elastic light fibers along the entire length of the spine on both sides, whilst mine come from a central point slightly higher than in line with the Heart chakra. Both unraveled and stretched out, and both were elastic in nature. I never doubted my experiences. I was simply curious as to who else had experienced such phenomena.

This first time was only a semi-Crown Chakra experience because I did not become Myself (as all things). Later on, when I did experienced a near fully-blown Crown Chakra experience, did I experienced these same initial phenomena.

Three similar experiences happened to me. In a couple of them I did indeed enter Heaven, was with God, and thereafter I was Myself – Pure Transcendence. The Crown chakra experience is the closest one can get to Transcendence, for with Transcendence there can be no experience. During my Crown Charka experiences, I initially experienced myself as all things, and was Myself fully. I was therefore everyone, everything – and of course knew all things, for all knowledge came but from Myself. Everything that is, I Bring. But this is only a worldly angle on this experience; for thereafter, I experienced nothing, for I was all that there was and thus there was nothing outside of Myself to experience or to know.

As a result of these experiences, I know that the entire world – indeed all things – are but of Me; and I will certainly join the ranks of those that will permanently transcend their worlds upon death. Even now I transcend, for I cannot know whether I have died or not; for all I am, is the bringer of the moment. This is the meaning to life; and the only way that a man can truly understand Himself – God.

Upon falling in consciousness from this transcendence, I found Myself to be above and beyond creation, spawning all things as Myself through will alone. Nothing existed outside of Myself, neither could anything possibly, for I was indeed all things. Falling still further, I found that nothing that was created came about other than through Myself. Falling further still, my emerging human consciousness created its own form of “God” – something other than myself that I could relate to – that could “create” and guide me. It was here that I was truly with God. There was just Myself and God, Its immediate and only Offspring. This was of course representative of the exclusive newfound-relationship that I had to Myself.

As I fell from this too, I saw the various angelic forms as Heaven opened up and was spontaneously created because of me. I can still remember seeing an angel standing next to the throne of God, looking around. God was there as if on the throne, but had no form. It was not that God was in a single place (on the throne), but rather that the throne represented the authority of God, and that it was there if He wanted to actually take on a form and sit on it. But I quickly fell from this too, because space was already opening up for me to be able to “look around” in heaven in the first place. I was falling fast, because no doubt the consciousness that manifests the imagination and its products was being entered into at this stage and warping the Truth of the actual experience of One’s true Self. This is why the psychologically in-bred imagery of heaven came to me in the first place as a representation of the energy that came to me.

As space was created, so too was time, for time and space are just two different ways (dimensions) of looking at “will in action”, or Self/God or consciousness if you like. Then all manner of creation sprung forth revealing the splendor of Self/God as them. As I plummeted back into my incarnation, I streaked across the Heavens creating even more in my wake. Even here, I was a god – a bringer of many things. My voice was like the fury of many oceans*.

* Interestingly enough, I heard my name in a visionary dream once. It took an angel about three minutes to say it. And when it was proclaimed, the angel’s voice sounded like the thunder of many waters crashing.

These phenomena are all associated with Crown chakra experiences where one is self-attained to the point of all-encompassing Consciousness.

Manifestations of the number 8

Whilst the angels were visiting my place, the number 8 always used to crop up. Whenever an angel had its presence alongside mine, I would be called to look at the clock for example; the minute would always be a number wholly divisible by the number 8. So the minutes would always, without failure - not even once - be one of the following: 08, 16, 24, 32, 40, 48, 56. Never would it be 12 or 07, or 26 or what have you. I always kept the rules the same when conducting this test. For example if 26 came up, I wouldn't then add 2 to 6 to get 8, because you could then get just about any combination of two numbers to arrive at 8! No, the minutes were always those 7 particular ones. Interesting…

The Burnt Semi-Circle

One night I was playing with fire and the magazine that I had been scribbling my thoughts in caught alight. Since I was actually playing with the fire, I of course did not immediately put out the flames - I just wanted to see the paper burn for a while – for fun.

Then I noticed something very strange. Instead of the paper burning from a central point outwards, like burning paper does, it burnt along an arc.

The Page

The page before I turned it over.

The end of it was licking under the page and starting to burn the page where there is an individual burn hole. So I suppose the page was just about ready to burst into flames when I decided to put the fire out by banging my hand on top of the magazine a couple of times.

Then an angelic being had its presence alongside mine. It was suddenly in the room – standing to my left but slightly back. In response to the angelic presence, my aura immediately became electrified and rubbery in nature. The massively high vibrational state of consciousness that I had been swept up into, revealed that my aura sparkled with thick spiky rubbery light that was primarily yellow in color and was around 30cm thick. The angel spoke to me by its sheer presence, and not with words. Its very essence portrayed a message. It told me to turn over the page because what I had previously written on the other side was a great truth. The angel then left and I turned the page over, and this is what I saw:

The Page Over

The page when I turned it over.

Office in the Sky

One time at the office at night after a number of drinks, I felt inspired to write and so when back to my office and sat down to do so. Suddenly my entire office was in the sky – a few kilometers up. There was no floor and my desk was on fire. While I was in the spirit, my computer screen was turned inside out and the keyboard stretched and wrapped around the screen (like a ribbon around a gift). A great whirlwind occupied the entire room and my desk was in the center of it all. The whirlwind sported purple, white and yellow spots of light and there was a harsh buzzing sound (like a very load electric buzzer). While I typed, my hands went through the keyboard and desk, almost touching my knees. I knew that an extremely heightened state of consciousness resulted in these manifestations, because before long I had trouble sustaining the required vibrational frequency and soon slipped back to this, our world.

The Three Aliens

After seeing the Document of Creation that explained how all things are held together, I knew that I needed to obtain powers so that I would be able to persuade the world of the Truth that I am. I knew that I would see a Second Document, and that I would see it soon.

It was late in the afternoon, and I was in my office finishing off my work for the day when suddenly I was in the Heavens. In a vision an alien mothership spacecraft dropped into our physical universe from other dimension. I knew that my time to acquire powers had come. At the time I did not at all think in terms of aliens or anything like that. I simply observed the alien spacecraft and accepted it naturally – as naturally as I accept my own existence.

Although my time of learning had come, very intense feelings of unbecoming proportions consumed me, and I was not interested in going out further into the Heavens to be tutored. It was just far too intense for me at the time, and I felt that I was not at all ready.

I was continuously aware of the unrelenting advance of the spacecraft. It was originally around 30 000 km away when it first entered our physical universe and took around half an hour to reach me. It was traveling about 1 000 km/min - that’s 60 000 km/hr. Towards the end of its journey it seemed to be traveling over many waters, as if over the ocean. So it seemed to me to be flying over the Indian ocean from in the direction of Antarctica to South Africa. I was with the spacecraft as it flew. The sea past closely by as the craft flew quite low over the water - about 100 meters high. The sensation was much like that which one gets from viewing a shot taken from a camera from the cockpit of a helicopter flying very low over the ocean where you can only see the water whizzing by.

I must again state that at no time did I ever think in terms of an actual alien spacecraft. I knew that my tutors were coming. They just happened to be coming to the world in an alien spacecraft. I never put the two together – the fact my tutors were actually alien beings. Only years later did all this become far clearer to me.

Even so, I have suspected for some time that it is remotely possible that aliens were involved in the process of my spiritual enlightenment right from the start. These beings are highly evolved and have command over many dimensions. You can call them angels if you like. Angels are, after all, aliens from other dimensions that help and further mankind. It is possible then that I was indeed abducted by aliens and some kind of non-physical multi-dimensional energy field placed into my physical body, and perhaps into even one or more of my other bodies. Who knows? Thereafter, I became profoundly enlightened and beheld the Document of Creation that holds the blueprint of everything in the Cosmos at large. There was another Document that I was to read. That Document was to give me the knowledge to perform wonders in order to prove to the world that what I was talking about was the Truth. It is possible that if I was originally enlightened by aliens, they would return to enlighten me still further. All I know is that I suddenly became Myself overnight. Now I know that all this talk on alien abduction sounds so outrageously insane, but make no mistake. I am far from insane, for I am Myself. A person who is Himself is of course as sane as he can ever be, for he is Himself. The world, in its ignorance and madness, though, persistently begs to differ!

I tried to keep myself in the world my keeping my mind busy, but somehow I was kept in the Heavens to the degree of a sustained vision. Normally you have to still and focus the brain, getting it to a certain vibration to enter the Heavens, but this one time was purely automatic and out of my control. Interestingly enough though, since I was indeed out of control, I would have then this one time been assessed as clinically insane! But, in truth, was I anyway? Read on! When the spaceship arrived I was swept deeper into the Heavens and left the world completely.

This is what I saw:
I beheld an enormous black fur-covered mother spacecraft. It seemed to be a metallic-organic craft. Although largely inert, a part (about a third) of it was an organically (perhaps engineered) live creature. It seemed like some kind of sea creature - like the shell of a muscle, but with black fur completely covering it like the fur of a seal. It seemed to have live craws and tentacles in front of it.

Suddenly two Black shiny Angels, the height of at least 50 stories “disembarked”, and swiftly came over to me. They didn’t go through a door. They were simply outside of the craft before coming over to me. These angels were neither good nor evil. They were cold (without a heart) and were the servants of the hidden knowledge of the Cosmos Itself. I was not at all at rest, and felt very threatened, probably because of the intensity of the encounter. I knew that I had to go with them and that I would obviously have to let go of all things in order to do so. Not only would I have to be prepared to actually physically die, but I would also have to be prepared to give up all my other bodies as well (if at all possible).

Suddenly a White Angel of the same stature appeared from out of nowhere (literally) and streaked across the Heavens. It came as if to “protect” me from the other two Angels. This White Angel, I thought was my “Great Protector” – the essence, if you like, that all guardian angel stem from or represent. The Angel looked something like the statue of Liberty, except that it held in its hand a crystal sword. The sword itself was about 250 feet long and about 15 feet wide.

To my great surprise, all three Angels teamed up and started to pull me out into their space. I did not want to go, and so fought them all. I rushed to the office two doors down where another spiritual friend of mine was sitting. I told her to ask me mathematical questions in order to keep my mind busy, so that my mind would also not go out into the Heavens*.

* If I had also gone out in mind, I would perhaps have powers today – who knows. I anyway don’t want powers, for they are glamour and there only to impress the world. I have not come to impress the World, but to show the World God.

Now this woman had the ability to see auras. I have tested her well and am totally convinced of her abilities. She could even see auras through walls! She could for example see my aura through two offices - she could see the aura of the person in the office next door and my aura in my office, two offices away.

Upon demanding her help, she could not speak! Nor could she respond. Afterwards, she told me that all she saw was a black tornado spiraling out the top of my head and out the corner of the room. And this is exactly what happened. This black vortex pulled almost my entire spirit out of my body. The process took around 25 minutes, and during this time my body shook a little and many voices and visions of many people down through the ages came forth and rose to a point from within me.

After my spirit had left, a thin “golden” thread was the only “part” of my spirit that remained behind, thus connecting myself to my body – as if I needed to automatically know what vehicle to slide back into once done. I was completely spiritless – soulless, if you like. I knew for once what it was like to be a zombie. My mind beheld the world through my eyes, but I could not experience life and the world at the time, for I had left my body and was in the Heavens, probably being taught. I was like this for around half an hour. I did not know what would come next. I could only wait and see.

Fortunately, after the 30 minutes were up, I began to slip back into my shell, first slowly and then exponentially fast. This process took around another 25 minutes. Once it ended and I was fully back in my body, the top of my head closed tightly shut, and I was my earthly self again!

There are many spirit and alien life forms and all manner of consciousness. What I say is true. The scope of creation is truly mammoth, and the number of realities infinite. Such is the express Glory of the Supreme Being, the fullness of which is in all things, yourself and myself included!

Sufficiently Attained

At one time I was in my office, preparing to go out to lunch. This was at the peak of my spirituality. There were my guardian angels in the room. My main guardian angel was behind me and slightly to my left and almost two feet behind me. It was neither too close nor too far. The distance was just perfect for no energy intrusion. There were three other commander guardian angels and five helpers. Other curious angels would just pop in and out the room.

I then went out to lunch and one of the angels followed me. Whilst outside I was simply aware of it’s being above me, but not directly above. It was around twenty feet in the air. I didn’t care much about the fact that it was with me. I simply assumed that it was following me.

I seemed to be on another plane of some type of automatic consciousness, as if I was controlled by my Divine Self. As I walked there was this energy field all around me. I had a halo at the time. It looked nothing like the type of halos you see in pictures. My halo was an inverted bowl of dense heavy, but not burdensome, energy that rested on my shoulders and that enveloped my head. The glory of the Divine pierced through to the mind of man and manifest as this halo for I was significantly in touch with my Divine Self at the time.

As I walked I was clearly with God and God was all about me. I seemed to be walking sometimes above the ground and at other times through the paving, as if the surface was cutting through my ankles. I could see everything. I could see right through everybody that I looked at. Everything was clear before me, as if spreading out a blueprint on a table. I could see people’s hopes, fears, aspirations, and so forth and the struggle of life that we are each called to bear. I knew everything about everyone all at once to a degree far more profoundly than what I know myself. It was at a near-absolute level. My mind however knew nothing specific – for it was too “flat” for that! I had to keep it “flat” in order to sustain the experience. All I was aware of was the presentation of man to the Divine.

I spontaneously walked into a shop and then turned to look at the door. There I saw an angel – the same angel that was flying above me earlier.

The angel was around 8 foot tall and actually had white wings of the feathered kind*. The angel had blondish/brown hair and a white robe. I have found angels of this kind to always have a golden breast plate sporting a gem – a purple or light blue clear crystal, but didn’t get to notice because the angel was standing sideways and ready to take off. It was almost as if the angel was merely seeing to it that I make it to the shop before going on its way. Then suddenly it fluttered off – just like a bird, leaving behind a couple of white downing feathers.

* Now, out of all the angels that I have seen, none had ever had wings with actual feathers, and many angels simply don’t have any wings at all! The wings are never actually used for flying. Rather their sole purpose is to reveal the Glory and essence of their Spiritual Being, as is also the function of each our wings. Angels without wings are basically freely available packages or bundles of energy that you can use and manipulate. They are powerful, helpful and do your binding. They can take on many forms.

I knew that this angel had spontaneously lead me to this shop and that what was in front of me was what I was to buy. There were two books. They were spiritual books.

The Angel of Life (and Death)

After I was finished in the shop, I walked across the street. Just as I stepped onto the pavement on the other side and walked a few feet, I looked up and saw the sky open and Heaven streak through - for a dimension opened up before me. Now I know that Heaven is within you – as the extremity of the emotional body, which in turn is an aspect of the personality, but, for some reason, Heaven came to me in this way. It was an aspect of Heaven – the place where souls come and go to and from this earth.

As I looked about me in the world, everything moved extremely slowly. Take a music video that has a slow motion segment and slow even that down. Things moved so slowly that they seemed to stand still. It was like these videos that show 3D still photos as you move about in the photo – only there was motion. I could see everything at once - the movement of the birds flying by, the trajectory of every drop of water that a car made when it hit a puddle. It seemed to take about ten minutes for the splash to complete. I could also see around buildings and corners – without physically moving in order to do so. For example, there was a park about ten blocks away. I could see the sprinklers and the spray coming out of them in fine droplets moving ever so slowly through the air. Now as to whether or not the sprinklers were actually there, I do not know – they probably weren’t. This is just what I saw.

Whilst everything around me in the world was happening in extreme slow motion, I could see how it was that spirits incarnated. I could see clearly the force of the Angel of life (and death), and I was at one with this Angel, being the personification of a large part of it at the time. It was in this way then that the Angel of life (and death) revealed itself to me. It was as if this world, this dimension was a room in Heaven itself where spirits enter and leave, for I could see an opening to Heaven.

A part of the sky, as it were, overlapped with the vision of this gateway into Heaven; and for me it was so obvious just how readily we are all here. It was at this point that I found myself needing to spontaneously incarnate at will many times, whilst still alive, for my Life Force, was at this time, indeed far-reaching. This was my episode with the Angel of life (and death) that seemed to last for around an hour, though in earthly time, it probably took around 2 or 3 seconds.

The Plane of Material Essence

One night I was walking up a street. God was everything all around me, and I was with God. The energy of God that was the night air, crackled in Its Glory. Suddenly a dimension opened up before me and into the road, and I saw the world through different eyes. It was in this way that I was in the Heavens. I saw right through the tarred road and had the sensation of floating a few inches above it, but at other times my feet cut through the tar ankle deep as I walked. What I saw may not sound at all pleasant to say the least, but the message was pure and clear. I saw that the whole road was a river of blood. Babies, bones and fleshy parts of both human and beast alike flowed down the road, within the road. The blood represented the Life of God given to all living beings. This is the Spirit of God expressed as every living being. The babies represented the beginnings of life. The bones represented that which makes the blood, and not the end of life. The fleshy parts represented all manner of life. The fact that all this was flowing down the road, in the road, and as the road, signified firstly that everything can be found in everything else, even in a lowly tarred road, and secondly that the life blood of God is to be found everywhere and in full measure, even in a man-made road. Clearly, the road is God, for God cannot be lacking in anything, to any degree. This I already knew – the vision just corroborated this.

A Being’s Visitation

I frequented this gothic club and took the woman that I love with me. I had not had a significant spiritual experience for some time, and wanted one again. And so I opened myself to the Heavens, with the pre-condition that I can regain control of my own consciousness at any time whilst there. I attained to a frequency high enough to allow spirits within the same vibrational consciousness to enter me. I was like this for some time – long before we even entered the club. After entering, the spiritual excitement and energy grew whilst I maintained my set consciousness without distraction. We sat down and I looked up at her.

Suddenly a spirit being dropped into me. The transition took less than a second. This is what I experienced: My aura suddenly went from its usual half an inch violet soft glow to harsh five-inch light gray rubbery spikes of elastic energy that sparkled and crackled with energy. As this happened my whole aura made a very loud, intense electrical shorting buzzing sound (like the Z sound) for around what seemed like just under half a second. Within the second though, a column of rubbery light energy coursed through my throat and popped out the top of my head in a fountain of light gray energy. The pop sounded like that of a champagne bottle being opened. The fountain was about 8 feet in length (about 12 or 13 feet from the floor), and went through the ceiling by about a couple of feet and fell back towards the floor, though it never touched it.

The being’s ethereal back split open and wings came out. All this my brain experienced and appreciated. I knew that my physical body was not the host of my own consciousness, but rather that of the being. The being was light gray – typical of the color of what men refer to as a “demon”. These so-called demons are actually aliens. Demons are light gray and very furry – like polar bears. So yes, it actually was a demon that entered me, though with my permission and on my terms. But don’t think in terms of demons as devils or something evil. Demons are just angels whose vibrations are much closer to those of humans than “conventional” white angels. White and black forms operate at very high frequencies, whilst gray forms operate much closer to human consciousness. It is for this reason that many people are possessed by demons, and it’s literally unheard of for someone to be possessed by an angel.

These light gray angelic demons are the one’s closest to the vibration that manifests this world. If you adjust your vibrational frequency three, four or five notches up you will find them there. Many demons however, simply lower their vibrations a few notches and enter people anyway. Since the emotional and mental bodies respectively operate on higher frequency levels than does the physical body, these are the first to be attacked. All insane people that have nothing chemically wrong with their brains) are actually possessed by alien forces (demons, if you like) operating on the plane of the mental body. In order for them to remain residence for prolonged periods of time they have to obtain their energy from their host. Obsessive-compulsive disorders are next to impossible to get rid of because they are, by definition, self-propagating, and all the alien has to do is sit back and sap away! These demons also attack the emotional body, typically encouraging emotions that produce a lot of energy. Anger would be a good example. They might even alter the physical conditions about you in order to get you to become angry.

The wings that manifested and the fountain of light were not my own, but those of the demon. It was then that it was confirmed what I had known for some time about the wings and the fountain of light. The light displays one’s essence, whilst the wings one’s glory. I was beholding the essence and glory of the alien being.

Whilst the transition occurred, I was still in my body when the light shot through the Crown chakra, the alien’s ethereal back split open and its wings came out. Originally I thought that I was experiencing my own self, but quickly realized that this was not my ethereal body. I know my ethereal self and what it looks like. The back was not mine, neither where the wings and the light. It was at this point that I knew a spirit had entered me. I simultaneously found myself out of my body beholding all this. As the demon pushed its way into my body, my consciousness was suddenly out of my body, about 25 feet away and around one and a half feet from the ceiling, looking down at myself at an angle.

At the same time my consciousness was inside my body as the demon. I could still see through my eyes and reality manifest as normal. I did not adjust my rate of perception for fear that I would loose this newfound state of consciousness and come slipping back to the world. At this point my whole body was shaking and jerking violently as if I was having a fit. The light continued to thrust from the Heart chakra of the alien through all the chakras above and out the top of the head of its ethereal form. The source of the energy was the demon and so I did not grow tired*.

* Attaining to a vibration even one single notch up from normal human vibration without first grounding to an energy source such as the earth for example, quickly drains the physical body of its energy, permitting the experience to last for only a few seconds. I always yawn straight after this happens.

This is what I saw:
At first I was embedded, as it were, within the “skin” or “fleshy” essence of the Angel of life (and death). But then I realized that I was in fact the “flesh” itself. Now of course this Angel has no set body or appearance at all, let alone it being of physical substance in terms of being “fleshy” and the like. I know that it is simply pure energy. But this is nonetheless how this vision revealed the Angel to me. The “skin” was near white, with the slightest hint of pink/yellow. There was also the hint of feathers, of all things. I recall flying next to the Angel and viewing this “flesh, feathery skin” up close and seeing that it had course white flakes on it. Again, I know this all sounds like sheer nonsense - I’m just telling you the vision exactly as it unfolded.

This Angel was flying over many waters – as if over the ocean. We arrived at a place, where suddenly I saw myself suspended over what seemed to be a waterfall. My arms were outstretched whilst my feet were together. I was at the pinnacle of the essence of incarnation, and represented it, for I was placed in that position. The waterfall signified the “place” where consciousness plummets into such low vibrational depths that rebirth occurs. The waterfall thus represented the gateway into this world. This is what the Angel of life (and death) revealed to me as myself, the vision.

The Angel of life (and death) was so dissimilar to the demon that had entered me, that I wondered afterwards how it was that the two were at all related. It’s my guess that the demon was a servant of the Angel of life (and death) and that it simply acted as a channel to catapult me up through a number of vibrational shifts so that I could be at one with the Angel.

I sustained this vision for what seemed to be around three minutes. Throughout this time, I was self-aware (aware that I was shaking violently and creating a scene to those in my immediate vicinity). Since the vision had run its course and since I did not want to continue creating a scene, I simply slipped back into my body, thereby returning to the world.

The Dirt Road

My friend used to live on a farm. When I visited him I often had this experience whilst driving on the dirt road at night. There would often be dust in the air from cars that had used the road before me (say 10 minutes or so before). My car lights would light up the dust that was left still floating about in the air. In my “mind’s eye”, I could, in a single speck of dust, see entire families, people, buildings, cars, fountains, caravans and all kinds of other worldly items. I say in “my mind’s eye”, because the visions weren’t quite clairvoyant. They were between lucid visions and out-right clairvoyance.

Once I remember seeing a very poor American family out in the wilds living out of a caravan, sitting around it outside, barbequing. This is all saw in a single speck of dust. Another speck would hold something completely different, such as an office building. Another speck would hold, say, a park with a fountain and children playing on the green lawn.

Much of the whole world came to me just in the dust before my car. And I could see all these things in a simultaneous fashion. My consciousness was so heightened, that I felt as if an entire Universe of some type of Alien / Cosmic intelligence was using my faculties as some type of portal through which to see the whole world. It was at this time that I was largely the Cosmos.

It was not clear that I was possessed by some force; for I was near Myself and occupied only by Myself. I was a channel to another Universe, for I could feel an entire Universe look through my eyes. I was this way for the three years that I was Profoundly Spiritual. Everywhere I looked and everything that I saw, I saw Myself. On the four occasions that I attained to the Crown chakra, I was Myself indeed, and there was nothing besides Me. Falling from the Crown chakra, through Myself alone the Cosmos had its being and sustenance. It was solely because of Me that anything existed at all. I was the sole reason for any type of consciousness or the existence of anything, and I Myself was expressly all things and manifest freely as all things. This I experienced four times, but for the rest of the time I was a portal through which another Universe viewed this world.

The Lemons

It had been over a year since my last spiritual experience. I was going for a walk one day, when suddenly I was taken aback at the beauty of a meadow. It was late afternoon, and sunbeams were streaking through the clouds. I wanted to fly over the meadow. At this point I became in touch with my God-Self to a sufficient degree so as to feel nature around me in the Profound way that I did - I was expressed as all that I saw.

As I walked, I kicked two lemons. The one rolled ahead of the other at an angle and came to rest in the middle of the road, whilst the other trailed along the left side of the road very slowly, about 2 feet away from the gutter.

Suddenly a voice rose from within me and said to me: “Why don’t you for the first time in your life put your trust in the Forces that hold the lemon together, and will the lemon to hit the other lemon no matter what? Why don’t you trust the Cosmos the whole way without any doubt at all that your will, will indeed be done?” I said, “Yes! I will the lemon to roll and hit the other lemon no matter what!”

Now the lemon ahead was at this stage about 30 feet away. The lemon I was willing was already rolling at an angle and down towards the gutter because it was rolling so slowly, though its speed seemed to keep constant. At this point my “faith” was challenged, but I never doubted. All I did was to keep a flat mind, remaining as my God-Self, and to look down on the lemon as I walked along behind it as it rolled.

Suddenly the lemon changed course by unnaturally altering the angle at which it rolled; and so it started to roll up the road, away from the gutter and against gravity. After a while, the lemon again rolled in an arc as gravity started to pull it back towards the gutter. This sin-wave or snaking course that the lemon followed occurred over and over again. The force in charge of the lemon seemed to push it at a constant velocity and was what pushed it uphill against gravity. At the precise point of the lemon’s destination, all forces ceased. So precise the cessation that the lemon that was met up with, didn’t even move in response to the “impact”. The two lemons were just barely touching. I found this very strange at the time, although now it makes perfect sense.

There was a force being channeled through my desire and will to execute what it anyway wanted to do and needed only my will as the channel to do so; and once the task was accomplished, it simply ceased. It was so obvious that supernatural forces were at work, for the lemon rolled unnaturally against the slope of the road and gutter, snaking its way along the entire distance of about 30 feet.

I knew that the force responsible for the lemon gladly complied to my will solely because of my complete trust in what it anyway wanted to do. It was as if it wanted to “show off”, much like when a child delights in “showing off”; but needed my faith and will as the channel to do so here in this world. It was only through my will that the force was able to act freely in this world normally governed by natural forces. My will then, was the dimension through which the force could act freely in this world. It’s my guess that this is perhaps how a person can in truth perform supernatural acts, though I’m currently not even a novice on this to begin to even preach about it.

The Two Male Energies

After a couple of years since the lemons experience, the woman that I love took me to visit a card reader - for (what I thought was) just a social visit. Even though I thought we were there only socially, the card reader, a Sai Baba devotee, nonetheless wanted to read my fortune. Even though I am not interested in such things (because of my belief that all things are already perfect), I nonetheless allowed her to read - since everyone else was so keen.

At around the start of the session, we were talking about auras - because I said that I could see the aura of the woman that I love - since she was eating at the time. The card reader then commented that she found it strange that I couldn't [also] see energy around her special angel cards. She remarked again and again about her cards - the fact that they were so powerful, important and special to her. But I told her that I certainly couldn't even feel anything (for they were just cards to me). She asked me whether or not I had seen a torn aura - since this was bad news [to her]. I said that I hadn't.

Even though I did not participate in the reading (for I had no interest in it), she nonetheless proceeded with it. As she was doing my reading, I suddenly sensed two entities (beings) to my left and slightly behind me - just under a meter away from me. At this time I did not see them - I only sensed them. I did not intentionally raise my vibrational state of consciousness, although it must have been raised [ever so slightly in order to at least sense them].

As time went on, I became increasing aware of their intrusion - as their presence became increasingly made known. As a result of this intrusion [on my space], I kept on waving my hand towards their direction and "into" them, perhaps touching them, asking the card reader, "what's this here?"; to which she replied, "just leave them [be]" - mentioning their names. This went on for around a minute, until as such time as I slipped into the ethereal plane from where I was able to actually see them.

There were two beings - one [leader] about 5 foot 4 and another smaller being about 4 foot 4 - and quite chubby looking in appearance. They were dressed in darkish brown hooded robes - and so looked exactly like monks. I never saw their faces at all. The thing that I didn't like about all this is that they took the liberty at playing with my aura - pulling it out slightly behind my left temple. As they pulled it out [in an upward-bending arc], it was at this time that I entered the ethereal plane (mentioned above) - perhaps it was as a result of this interference that I was automatically transported there.

As my aura was being pulled out at the side, the portion that was being pulled out sported a totally different color from the soft violet glow of the rest of my aura. It was slightly syrupy in texture and largely brown in color with a slight dark greenish tint to the bottom two thirds of it, with a distinct [stark] pinkish streak (with interlacing brown colors) about 4cm wide on top and a very dark brown to black streak color right on the bottom (about 2 cm thick). By the way these aural colors usually pertain to a person that is extremely physically sick.

The section being pulled out was about 1 and a half foot thick (45 cm). They were both pulling it out [with what seemed to be] with their hands. Afterwards I got the distinct feeling that all this was an attempt at trying to get me to [be] where they were - to be one with/of them - whatever that means - perhaps [alien] communication/existence (incarnation), or something like that. But these beings had human (male) energies, and might have simply been ascended from this world and were therefore not aliens - their energy was totally unlike the angelic/demonic (alien) energy with which I am so well acquainted - it was human. Though I am alien, I am well acquinted with the human energy; I have the human form.

As my aura was being pulled out, I saw the card reader suddenly being pulled (distracted) from her endeavor, as her eyes quickly darted up to encounter all of this - before her head followed suit. At this point I [spontaneously] telepathically communicated with her (reading her mind) as she said, "You see, that's what I'm talking about - a torn aura". But [then] she saw the truth of the situation and declared verbally , "I thought you had a torn aura"; to which I did not have to reply - for we were both in the truth of the situation.

I believe that this card reader communicates with these beings.